May 2013
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Inspired by Bukowski
Things are harder for the living
Than Bukowski
He died with a name already
While we have to battle hurricanes
And glaciers melting
Too many feel entitled
Because of history and cellular devices
I don’t even know
Where this poem is going
Just like the government
Does not want to spend any money
On outer space
Trees are actually the smartest
They have feelings but don’t...
April 2013
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More like the Maybe
I feel more like
the maybe
I will
than the yes,
I will
I was in more of a hurry
to get dressed
this morning
than I have ever been
to find meanings
Can’t tell if this
feature of myself
is genius
or laziness speaking
via actions
Maybe,
both.
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HOME
I hated living barely alone
So alone even with someone
So I moved back home
Right now I feel dumb
Like a break of progression
was intentional to myself, for me
because of being too needy
So now I live at this home
So loud here with a 180 pound dog
and my mom
Parents are not quiet
Nor should they be, all the time
Can’t decide what to do
with my life
That goes for...
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Those becoming moments in life
You’re becoming one of mine
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My heart is split
Nope
My mind is fucked
My heart whole
Memories and things
if they even happened
Subliminal messages
or just old news again
In my head
My vision split
Two eyes too many
Maybe just ripped
Tiny little bits
they’re never changing
Nope
A someday healer
If by getting better
you mean still living
Sure.
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Dark blue afternoon
Window drapes
I can see you
Lost escapes
Outside of my window
So original, no
but you are
Forever
An angel
of my imagination
You dance all the time
Floating above everyone
If only,
you could be held
I’d be happy.
March 2013
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Spring is Springing
I just spit on my deck
It is only mucus
and it doesn’t hurt anyone
Fears linger because
I let that happen
Cares are different
I don’t have them
Spring is springing
as if it never has before
To the deck floor boards
I feel grounded
Like this is the time
I change
One day of this weather
and my soul comes dragging back to me
It resembles a reluctant old lover
that wants...
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Champagne
in the living room
means you can watch hillbillies on tv,
sports, or brain surgery
while imbibing
is still in style.
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Fate
Like nails down my carpet
At first I felt nothing
Until you were on top of me
Then, I felt fate
February 2013
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I see dancing men in my head
Think they’re my uncertainties
Certainly,
they are witnesses
No more than me
or my friends.
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This town is dotted with memories
Smells so disgustingly familiar
They enter me all at once
Now I don’t know what to do
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I don’t just want to
be a -mother of the night-
Her guardian
Me, I lie unsleeping
The stars
are so bright
Sometimes, they keep me
from dreaming
I have to stay awake
and watch
the night with my life
It lights
as round as moons
and the craters
I live there
until the morning breaks
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It was inspired by something
I heard, or saw
I think on T.V.
What to do these days?
Jokes on me
because I can’t remember
the last time I did it right
without thinking
In my childhood room
feel like I’m on
a demented vacation
It is snowing here
and my thoughts as a cliche,
they are in battle
with themselves
I hate the winter
and I’m not so sure
if I like
you...
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I want to let it
Eat me
Then,
I want to
eat you.
Do not
be afraid
For I,
am just
your lover.
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Faces at the record store
I am one of them
The computer told me
They don’t make records anymore
but it was wrong.
January 2013
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I thought
I saw a ghost
but it was just
a lonely shadow.
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I like it when they leave me out
Leave me alone
Because they don’t know
where my dreams go
My thoughts fly
to places unknown
And I think there
For a moment
This moment will never be done.
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Highness on a stoop
in the city worth fighting for
Brick, I miss you and
Anyone there
They who understand insanity
The urge to eat a dream
chase relentless worry
on trains
We do it best.
Philly,
I’ll be queen
of whatever apartment I get.
I’ll live inside of you
as smoke does,
Thanks.
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Small gestures
Street plaid
Cats unfed
By anyone except trash
Falling single homes
Bars close
Winter is dead
Many months left
Train rides
Torn streets bleed
Girls in boots
Cold heated breaths
Big moons full
Neon signals
Tights colored red
Flashing buildings
Bus stopped kids
Seeing me
in the old part of the city
That, my friend
was all in you head.
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I need my paychecks
to live
That is it.
You can’t even make
origami tables
with them.
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When delusions and hopes
are so close
that they’re almost the same
Then you know
Success.
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Two people in bloom
Our love to die for
A budding moon
Of a mind left wondering
December 2012
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Winter Blues
That little high, it suits me
Then I go to work in the morning
Morning, mourning
Mourning the everyday
I come home to stars
When I miss the day sunshine
That’s when I cry
and I wonder
do dreams really come true?
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Being outside
I never feel as high
As I do inside
Inside my own head
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Buds and suds and being so in love with someone, everything outside looks like a rainbow just died all over it
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World Digital
Things are so transparent
Me, I don’t understand it
People see people in type faces
Places are people
They all look so similar
World digital with nothing meanings
Me, another time frame lives inside
I don’t understand it
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I am fluid
I flow through souls
It is all I do well
Ice cubes
dancing in their own kind, melted
I change shape
When need be
I freeze like that
and it is what I do best
Running through you
I am as liquid is
A real ocean view
I am alone no more
I am found
November 2012
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I so sincerely wonder,
where your biggest flaw comes from
Have you ever been followed?
The flames in your pupils
did someone cause them?
I so sincerely wonder,
from within or upbringing
that softness when we’re alone
does it flow through your body easily?
I hate to see your sad face
when I know for one reason,
or another,
you need me.
It makes me so sincerely wonder,
if we can...
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My eyes blink
A starry treat
Bright delight
Sex feast
Cuddle hard
Moon bounce
and spotlighting
our troubles afterwards,
You are
just like me.
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One
One with the pink cloud
Fade into leaves
Become dark green
Just as the trees
and release
One with the ocean
Fade into sea foam
Covered and coveted
Sink depths beneath
and feel lovely
One with the blue birds
Fade into bamboo
Let them mate
Inside your branches
and sing the song of hope
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Craving you like frozen yogurt
Milky way galactic
Cold as ice dessert
You are
Like the side of the moon
Where I’m from
Dark and holy
Stand behind there
Become the Vitamin D
I am missing
and replace me
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Overcoming restlessness
As brain waves, they whither and melt away
Create new ones we will
Some things like the hands of memories
that I used to hold nightly
Neat how I’m soaked in love
Feeling as if before I never was
Re-arranged the people and places,
they become us during this phase
and,
If I don’t ever write anything better
than a sappy or self-reflective poem
At the...
October 2012
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All We Do
All we can do is experience it
Like I was once told
The same old shit
and other kind words
This day is mine, yours
to behold
All we can do is express
It’s what I live for
Disease of excess
Doors, and doors, and doors
Will open and close all over
All we can do is feel
The touch of others,
Ideas, unfolding minds
Patience is time
All we can do is try
Because there isn’t...
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Melted
He writes down thoughts
I train-wreck
We are hell on Earth
Heavenly devils
Much too sentimental
Oh well,
because I’m melted
His flames made me a puddle
of buttered love
Gloves don’t fit as good
As us on haunted hands
Inside each other like minds
And souls and bones
Once alone in an underworld
unknown
So much heat
Engulfing and inspiring me
I make things like
Hot...
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Dream Boat
Always we flow
Vibes in ocean water
Sometimes do what we’re told
Either way
I might be his muse
Will all happen soon
He could be mine too
Let’s get mentally ill together
Love like creativity
On a glorious Monday
My sickness
Grows and fades
Tides keep change alive
Depends on the ways I take
When it all stands
What we do planned
Not as good
As our bums in the...
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The Top
Do you have to claim a soul that is dead
and stopped
to get to the top?
Because if that’s the case
Down here, I’ll stay
and be happy knowing that
I’m still capable of glowing-
technicolor among tie-dyes
Black and white without being negative
Sepia and jewel tones become my aura
When it’s left alone to flourish
Where life is not just for achieving,
but...
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A man once imaginary
I swear to Earth I just saw that
Out of the ocean he emerged
Shameless and foam-covered
Rumor has it
sun and seaweed birthed him
The tide connects when we do
Pulls out bold then
He moves inside me slow
as a steady stream cleanses
I wake up from that dream
a different being.
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Celadon
All I can do is stare
Fine through your hair
that hangs in front of your face
in the slightest of ways
Somewhere between old trees
and power lines electric
Shameless but never rushing
Ever I can’t leave that thing
An undying urge
to get spacey with someone special
Nestled in my heart are the words
to ask you, they are taking a break
at this moment to stare
fine through my...
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Unfinished.
Those days were too clean,
too bright
Nothing like the city life
Believe it or not
I see suburbs within me fluxing
This time around
I dodge flames
and in between I dance
because I learned long ago
that minutes,
they never make a difference
When you’re a sinister beauty
or having sex with one
To think I used to have strong feelings
not the weird part
The chemical luck
is what...
September 2012
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Temporary Moments
Smoking the dust of old times
on the weekends
brings me gratitude
Like slackers drive the sun
behind them
with no matter
to the changes in weather.
Now the only way to do it
is with yourself included
And I said as my friend,
I think you can
escape these temporary moments
unscathed.
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Primitive Instance
Willed to you by soul
not my eyes alone
Even without sight
I’d feel the heat
of your amber tones
and near I would be
In spitting distance
Exploring deep
and reaching down beneath
Looking ready
and slightly golden
Hands firm and free-standing
Let us have that primitive instance
abandoned and consoled.
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Myself Included
When even one thought
is as prophetic
as it aloud sounds
That is the moment I feel most myself,
again.
I think I can find a nice place some night
and get lost there
Close to that moment when
you really choose to see me.
I’ll be this grown girl
we all haven’t met before now
Maybe I’m about to have a break-through
Even though,
I want to be that kid...
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My soul told yours a tale
Of lonely nights alone
And fights within itself
The trivial and undeniable
Happenings and just pipe dreams
All at once and in more breathes than one
My soul sold yours a long stick
So with it you could touch the sky
Reach high and go straight up
Like mine never did
But it still has the urge collected
Don’t know if it’ll ever get there
In this meantime,
In...
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BAGGAGE
The fireflies, they get to me at night
The sun in the day streaks my hair
Amber waves in my mane
Like American times in the summer
Bright, rough, no worse for the wear
Tear through that day like it’s destiny
You want to move freely like dust?
Then get some wanderlust with me
Let’s make love to the new day
Travel far and wide to some stone uncovered
Whatever you do, take some baggage
we...
August 2012
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Lunar Love
The physical proportions
They look like Saturn to me
but I’m hot on another planet
every time you get closer, closer
as Mars approaches
The red glow as my witness
and you turn into a meteor shower
Closer more so than the others
I am your Venus tickled pink.
Splintered with your brightness
A star doesn’t burn forever
Who would care when we have each other?
Halley’s...
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Universal
The universe is blessed
just among itself
Mother nature is blessed
when she’s the most up close
and like the skies above
there’s wealth even in a liquid dream
and like the birds all lined in a row
There’s a hearty creature in every man’s soul
Like you, yourself, looked red in the face
once and fought it away
The universe can turn yellow and black
or...
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Newness
People are always a trade-off these days
It’s rudeness for being cool
and sometimes I want newness
His face starts to blend
with others in my memory
Not mentally at hand
like he used to be
Laying in the sun I start to feel
that heat on my back and I like it
reminds me of the beach
but open eyes showing
I’m only in the backyard
As trees replace sand
and grass...
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He mingles like a thick cloud
in an otherwise blue sky
When the rain is coming
so does his transformation
into an umbrella
He hides me from the showers,
is a shelter from outsiders
The sun is also covered by his shadow
and that’s the problem with him.
